name: joshua jakubowski email: thatcher17@aol.com bands: guitar and vocals (joshua fit for battle, neil perry, and superstitions about the sky) age: 21 (9/22/79) home: freehold nj bands that make me smile, cry, laugh, and sob: portriats of past, ida, honeywell, propagandhi, hassan i sabbah, mohinder, unwound, alkaline trio, you and i, party of helicopters, makara, and bob dylan.........just to name a few *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* 10/03/00 as most of you know i usually post shit here that is going on in side my brain/heart whenever i feel the need to vent...haven't written in a while...i will prolly post again soon...thank you to everyone who has written me and shared so many things...thanks for being there...and acctually giving a shit...<3 *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~* 12/4/00 damn i haven't written in a while...due to me being a lazy fuck and not really giving the same...i haven't really thought much about how things have been going...with me...with my frineds..with my life in general...just in maybe the last few days i realized that i don't miss as many people as i once did...it just seems like i've just given up on so much...i think it's fucking weird how you can go from being the closest of friends and just spend every moment with them...and then in a matter of a few words be the furthest apart and not know who eachother are anymore?...i'm sure i'm stating the obvious here...but hey fuck off...it jsut bothers me that things can be that way...it seems like things go in sperts for me...i dunno...i'm just waiting and letting life lead me to something i guess..which is prolly silly to think that it will...but i figure i've made it this far on my own...whats the rest! of my life?...i mean i know that i have people who love me..and are there for me...but the fucked thing is that i really don't know if i have taken advantage of that...i spend most of my time in my head...just kicking around thoughts back and forth trying to make something come of all this...maybe one day i'll figure out why...but then again i doubt it...yours truely -j <3